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waxing lyrical @ blogspot v1 - introspection.
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Saturday, July 19, 2003It's funny how one can feel so alone despite being surrounded by people. How there can be billions of people in existance, and yet you wonder why the only person that seems to be around is you.Sometimes I feel like I'm watching all that's going on from above. Detached from my body, from the harsh realities that assault my senses day after day, where I remain as a passive observer of my life, not feeling, not hurting, invulnerable to all the pain present out there. And at that moment, solitude doesn't seem so bad. In fact, it's rather enjoyable, simply having the thoughts in your head for company. Then suddenly, you awaken to what's around and a myriad of emotions are unleashed. Especially loneliness. Being alone fucking sucks at these times. And yet I can't seem to summon up the zest to socialise, to chill with friends. I know they're there, but in that moment, they all seem to be unsuitable company. Instead I seek someone else, one whose identity I do not know of, have no clue to, and could very well only exist in my imagination. Me, myself and I? 20:51 |
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